the 12 hour shift takes me through just about every emotion.
sleepy. awake. hungry. excited. exhausted. driven. frustrated. silly. emotional. confused. proud. talkative. knowledgeable. just plain dumb.
orienting means i'm in a constant state of learning. making mistakes and fixing them. i'm a student again. and at times, i'm just plain frustrated that i can't do it by myself yet. it's then that i resort to waitress nurse ellen and just bring people orange juice (bc it's the only thing i won't screw up).
then i give 10 meds, use some awesome critical thinking skills, and crack a funny joke, and i'm on top of the nursing world again.
i know this is what i'm supposed to be doing. there's an energy i feel at the end of the day that tells me i'm gonna get it right and it's gonna be awesome.
in other news, i boldy and awkwardly attempted to make friends at work by asking another new graduate nurse if she wanted to come to our party this weekend. she looked a little scared, so we'll see how that goes.
Everybody has to start somewhere, and you are exactly where God wants you. When you look back and see the doors He opened and the ones He closed in order for you to be where you are today, it is truly amazing and something only our God could do. You have a "love in action" heart and are well on your way to BECOMING a fantastic nurse. Remember that mess-ups are the best way to learn, and be thankful for each one of them. I love you, and am so very proud of all that you are!
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